Coming back on Tumblr after so long and seeing all the poetry and art and things I used to look at and think about every day makes me think: I haven’t been myself at all, lately.
I’m a lot happier and I’m glad for it. But where is the art, the literature, the mind?
a man: hm. see I wouldn’t have phrased it exactly like that. I might have said “hello” or perhaps “salutations.” but the way you said it is cute though.
See, this is why you trust your gut rather than listen to your friends because your friends’ instincts will always want you with the sweet guy you’re hitting it off with. But my gut was telling me that even though he definitely was doing very sweet and caring things, he himself wasn’t aware of how far along he was. And I, myself, was not feeling it at that level yet. We just weren’t there yet.
And I’ve already shown too much and been a bit affectionate and I can see the changes. It already isn’t how it was at the start. They’re always drawn to that mystery and when I start to let them in a bit, they become comfortable and complacent. But I refuse to be a two-dimensional mystery woman for the sake of keeping you engaged. If my being a normal, tough, happy, unhappy woman behind the aura is too boring for you, that’s your problem. It does hurt me to see that you liked me and seemed to have decided against it (just as I was becoming attached to you) and that that initial interest and spark is fading but I won’t play games to keep you. You’re no one to deserve that.
I can’t believe the 2005 pride & prejudice completely understood that the ONLY correct characterization for Darcy was having him look mortifyingly uncomfortable in literally every situation he’s placed in. his body language is just. horrifying. this man wants to crawl into a hole. not to mention he’s like 6 and a half feet tall which is just. he’s so uncomfortably Large that you can’t ignore him even though he Desperately Wants You To Ignore Him. thank GOD they didn’t try any of that Dashing Gentleman bullshit. awkward nerd is the only correct Darcy.